1還沒過 我已擔心2

曾幾何時 我多麼的不屑 

時間久了 什麽都想試

已經不想要重複又重複

我不甘心 因為我真心地堅持

不氾濫我選擇的權利

我得到的竟是這些

算了吧 濫用權利也只不過讓自己墮落

你甘心就這樣讓自己成為庸俗的人嗎

我只能這樣對我說

She phones me more recently

Thank you for everything

Sorry for everything

I get it, and I miss you too

What's wrong with me.?!

Feel like wanna cry while sleeping playing eating talking thinking even doing nothing!
What the hell! Am I still me.? I'm not tough than I was.? What's toturing me.?

莫名的忧郁

现在的心情 听到什么样的旋律
都涌起心里不知名想哭的欲望
从来没有这么感伤 从来没有那么想要重来
怨恨自己为什么喜欢的要和别人不一样
改变自己不可能 这只会更痛苦
我明明很清楚 我喜欢吃青菜 你为什么硬塞猪肉
我明明很清楚 我不喜欢吃辣 你为什么逼我吃辣椒
我明明知道 我杀了人 犯了罪 你为什么 还要在我惭愧后悔时 再踩一脚 在伤口上撒盐
眼泪流不足几滴 听到了开门声 又被逼装着没事 继续轻松自在玩电脑
不管你说了几次 我懂我懂 我也知道 眼泪也只能从自己的眼眶流出
歧视 让我每天都好像住在监牢 被一大堆路人当犯人般被砸蛋
我何时才能过着正常的生活 如果你们一辈子不觉悟 那我是不是要过不正常的生活一辈子
就因为当你喜欢看香港连续剧 而我喜欢看琼瑶 你觉得我是耻辱 可以当众羞辱我
放心 你要我死 我偏偏活下去 我会大大声哭完 还你一个大大的报复
这不是选择 路不是我选的 不是我要的 但我会走下去 因为我没有错
我们喜欢的不一样 可都是人 为什么我活着要比你辛苦两倍
我明白 唯一的办法 就是赤裸裸坦荡荡的面对 但我还没有能力 没有勇气
没有能力养活自己 没勇气见到爸妈的眼泪叹气 但愿你相信 因果报应的存在
不要一味为了玩笑而糟蹋别人的生活 我有尊严 我尊重你 也希望你尊重你自己

Gloomy Eyes

Get attracted by them.

If you're trying to seduce me, it works

Of course I knew you're not

I'm just lying to myself

I don't know is this consider as One Sight Love.?

Nothing gonna last forever, so just don't get it started.

Wishlist of 2011

I wanna
be  wealthier
be  fairer
be  happier
be  luckier
be  more fit
be  more handsome
be  successful
have  good result
have  higher IQ
have  higher EQ
have  flawless skin
have  many more friends
have  a place in heaven if I died
have  whatever I wants!

优雅地奋斗

才发觉原来新年一点都不“大粒”

日子还是照过  书还是要照读

短短一阵子而已  拼了吧  想永远输吗 

加油  何佳声  优雅地奋斗吧

Two-movies-day

I watched two movies in different shopping mall today.
Paranormal Activity 2 @ Gurney Plaza while Season of the Witch @ Queensbay Mall
If you're a coward, don't see then. :D




Paranormal Activity 2 Trailer

Season of the Witch Trailer

I was naked

I'm physically and mentally tired after torturing drama class, chendol time with Esdeyn makes me feel little bit better and we're going back to each home then. I got home but I didn't wanna go home so early since I've nothing to do alone. It's boring to me and the time I stay at home is too much! I had enough of it! So, I called my one of my female friends.(I still have to call her as female though she doesn't look like. Oppss! haha okay, believe me, she's a SHE) 

Me: ''Hey, where're you.? I'm bored, come Queensbay find me wey.''

Ms.D: '' Harr...I going to have lunch with my mom. Paiseh, next time larh.''

Hmm...this's the way she declined me. Inspite of I never expected of this asnwer, still, I decided to go Queensbay even I was alone. Sunday, family shopping day, couple dating day or friends gathering day huh.? Luckily, it's not Christmas. I hate people looking me with the OS (aiyoyo he's so pitiful, eating alone, no friends, no family), I don't need sympathy okay.? But what to do, I think this is what going to appear in most Malaysians' minds if they met a person walking in a shopping mall like me especially when I wearing my pasar malam slippers and PJs. Judge a book by its cover---usually what Malaysians do. 

I always buy a lot of food when I go to shopping mall alone because nobody is going to stop me from spending money to buy craps. It is worth mentioning that I had succeed not to buy Christina Aguilera & Ricky Martin's albums. I felt like money angel is in the fight with wallet devil when I found their albums at Speedy 2=Rm50! OMG, how cheap! I wanna say Sorry to Xtina & Martin but I LOVE YOU to myself! wahaha I did it!

At first, I thought my day would end in depress but God loves me I found something that it would not happen and I would not if hanging out with buddies. 

Story 1: I bought a plate of Tamagoyaki (Japanese Omelet) and sitting on a bench then started to enjoy it. After I've eaten 3 pieces and about 6 or 7 left, one of the Malays beside me muttered in a low voice: '' Saya lapar la.'' I felt embarassed and left the Tamagoyaki on the bench and just walked away. After some time, I walked there and the food is still there. He didn't eat it. :C  Pigs nowsady is too lucky, dissapointed, picky eaters. Haha Just joking.

Story 2: Heading car park, to get my car to go home. I saw an interesting scene. I can just describe what I've seen due to I was in my car and didn't dare to open the window, I am nosy coward, right.? I saw a malay girl A smashed a malay boy with her handbag (I guess is her boyfriend) and as a reply, the boy pointed at the girl with mad and stressed expression and then malay girl B physically trying to seperate both of them. Hmm..from my audience side of view, it's about love and this makes my day happier and ends perfectly. Maybe I've been single for too long, and made me unbalanced minds. I feel great when couples having problems. I need friends, love, and MONEY!

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幾乎負擔不起的十幾元雞飯

父母都嫌貴

每日喊窮到讓自己也煩的人卻吃了

曾經餓過  為錢流淚過

人  是否都犯賤

陷於苦境就怨天尤人  感歎自己命苦

脫離苦海就開始  沾沾自喜  得意洋洋

眼見友人都各憑實力  闖蕩國外  

吃的  是最便宜的三文治

更何況自己是個啃老族

憑什麼  憑什麼吃這麼好

不知覺  心裡哎喲哎喲後悔地叫

責怪年輕時無辜的不懂事讓過去不努力也無補於事

能做的  只不過是感歎和自我安慰

想要大大步地往前跨  徹底地擺脫懶惰蟲

擔心  害怕迷茫的前途和自己的不確定感

但又怎麼也不肯讓自己什麽都不做

要的是什麽  我也不懂

我不想輸

神  給我指引  好嗎

La nuit dernière, tu me manques

J'ai pleuré pour vous

Bonne larmes et des larmes mauvaise

pour moi, vous êtes toujours la plus spéciale

météore n'a pas écouté mon souhait

et a disparu

La nuit dernière, tu me manques

Sanctuary

I've done it, finally.
A space for me to share my colours & release my moods.